Recently, I decided to try something new every month that moves me at least in the general direction of life improvement. For March, this meant revisiting an old foe -- yoga. While I am well aware of the benefits of yoga, I've still always viewed it as an annoying, Ned Flanders kind of habit that rubs me like sandpaper across my temple. I know it may sound strange to say, but the peaceful, kind, nature of the practice drives me nuts. I've spent most of my entire life in an Army environment that practices war and not only praises aggression, but rewards it mercilessness. My father, a career Army officer, never tolerated idleness and if you were trying to sit still and relax, then you were obviously neglecting some other chore that needing completing right-this-very-minute. You certainly didn't want to be accused of being lazy, above all things. While I am all grown up now and understand the absurdity of that mindset, I still have never successfully rid myself of the instinct to MOVE. NOW. And for cryin' out loud, don't expect someone to ask you nicely. I am sadly far more comfortable with someone screaming at me than I am with a soft, gentle voice explaining to me the benefits of measured, deep breathing over the soothing sounds of a dulcimer. Thus, my journey with yoga continues.
This time, I chose an instructor that I truly admire and have known in the gym for years. She was gracious enough to invite me to her class and leave guest passes at the desk for not only me, but my yes-I'm-dragging-you-along-with-me husband. I actually showed up with my own yoga mat that has been in my garage for the last four years collecting dust. I had to wash off the dirt, spider webs and dead bugs before it was class ready, but I felt that at least I'd LOOK like I knew how to do yoga up until the class actually starts.
Mind you, I have no fear of looking like an idiot in a class, so the self-conscious bit really wasn't an issue for me. I just wanted to find a spot in the back, observe the room, do my best to imitate the moves, and have some fun along the way. Of course, as soon as the doors opened, all the yogi-ites immediately strolled in and flopped their mats across the entire back row. We then tried the middle row, but it also filled up quick and to our dismay, we found ourselves in the front. Andrea, our instructor, was nice enough to loan Andy a mat (since I didn't have another bug-encrusted one to share), and it was shoes off, lights out, we begin!
Andrea turned on the yoga fire hose as she began quickly calling out and moving through the postures and poses one by one. I tried to keep up with the directions, but my brain moves entirely too slow, so I found myself looking around the dark room and just trying to copy what everyone else was doing. Andy appeared to be as lost as I was, so I didn't feel quite so dumb. There were lots of strange descriptions -- dogs, lizards, happy babies, warriors, triangles, pyramids, airplanes and few others that I can't remember. My favorite was something about a "powerful chair" pose that really resembled something Andy does behind photographers when he wants the kids to laugh for a family photo. We call it the "how you poop in the woods pose", so you can imagine my reaction when this turned out to be a legitimate yoga tool. It ended up causing at least two brief giggling fits that I tried to suppress so as not to distract those around me quite so much.
The music turned out to be much better than I expected, especially since Andrea followed through with an earlier request of mine to have some Eminem during class. That was my favorite few minutes as I was able to quietly rap along with the obscenities and forget that I have no idea how to attempt a Dying Dog Warrior Triangle pose. Andy enjoyed some Matthew Sweet music that also made the playlist, but while having to sit quietly AGAIN at the end of class, I still think I heard a dulcimer over some kind of strange singing/yodeling. I guess you gotta throw in at least one?
I also learned during class that I am horrid at trying to stand on one leg. I've always had the balance of a drunk, three-legged cat, which adds a special degree of difficulty when it comes to yoga. Even as a young girl, I was one of the only kids in gymnastics that was eventually allowed to skip the balance beam lesson each week. I required so much assistance for even the smallest task (and probably whined so extensively) that I believe they just gave up on me and decided to call a truce.
Balance aside, I managed to make it through class without major injury, skipping a couple of poses that hurt my back and replacing them with extra push-ups (or chaturangas, I believe they are called in yogi speak). This is my favorite part of yoga. Finally, an exercise I recognize and am actually GOOD at doing!
I feel that one of the worst tasks is having to close your eyes for extended periods of time. For me, this is nearly impossible. Rewind to childhood -- closing your eyes very much resembles a nap. No can do. Got things to do and see. Did I just hear the door open? Who's that coming to class late? What are these numbers on the floor? Looks like they're peeling. Someone should fix that. Where's the clock? Oh look, the digital clock got replaced! Where's the instructor? Is Andy closing his eyes too? I think I need a pedicure. Yep, looks like I do. Where should I go for lunch? In my mind, it goes on and on and on.....who's need relaxing?
The answer, I realize, is clearly ME. I will continue to try yoga where I can throughout the month of March, and I will do my best to keep my mind open because somewhere inside, I think I like the IDEA of doing yoga, but it hasn't quite caught on with my body or brain. If they invent some kind of combat yoga class where you get to complete obstacles around the room while wearing a chicken plate, shoot Airsoft at other participants and do more push-ups, I'm all in. And absolutely NO dulcimers. See you there?
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